Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).

It's the old old story - I am misunderstood - my partner (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated. It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by. As for developing a firm relationship - inwardly deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that if you open up your heart and feelings you are sure to get hurt. Since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm, you feel that there is that need to conform, but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

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Pain~three day's grace

[chorus]

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling down
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

chorus x2

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

[chorus]
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

[chorusx3]
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

Running Away~Midnight Hour

Don't lie and say that it's okay
It's alright if there's nothing more to say

[chorus]

So I'm running away
I'm leaving this place
Yeah I'm running away
I'm running away

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame
It's too late for you to make me stay
No I won't stay

[chorus]

I'm faster than you can follow me from this lonely place
And farther than you can find me
I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today

And I, I'll never let you find me
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No I won't look back
And I don't wanna hear your reasons
Don't wanna hear you tell me why I should stay

And try, and try to understand me
Try to understand what I say
When I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit
I'm running away

[chorus]

The silent street was immediately filled with my heavy insistent footsteps. Trepidation ran through my blood like poison from the fangs of a snake, winding its way stealthily, coursing through every drop of blood in my vein and spreading to my palpitating heart. The timer in me ticked away quickly, urged by the impending doom.

Silhouettes of sinewy trees towered over me, its skeletal branches swaying in the night wind as if beckoning me to enter its frosty embrace. The ethereal moonlight bounced off the tiled pavement, its sallow rays ensnared me, glowering like a spot light through the fog, exposing me to the harshness of the night. Then I felt the meaty fingers curl around my arms, tightening as the other hand stifled my cry for help. “I can’t wait.” He grunted and smacked his lips as he pinned me down onto the floor with his weight.

I sprang up from bed and caressed my right arm. The dream was so real. I could still smell the lingering animalistic muskiness of him as he breathed down heavily on my neck. The beaded perspiration streaked across my tensed-up cheeks and tears rolled down uncontrollably. The crying had become intolerably loud by now.

“Would you just shut up!” I grabbed the glass and flung it to the crib. Almost regretting it instantly as the crying got louder. The shattered glass was strewn across the floorboards. Callously, I stood up on my emaciated legs and tottered over. My footsteps tainted the floor with its bloody imprints of my bleeding sole as I walked across the room. Yet, I could not feel anything, as if all the hurt in the world that could happen to me was done on that very night. Why did I have the baby? Why? I looked at it and my face distorted into an indescribable disgust.

I picked it up with my gangling arms and cradled it to my chest. “Hush hush, Mummy’s here now.” I hissed and my hands involuntarily moved to push the strand of stray hair away. I kissed it and put it back down. Sluggishly, I went to the bathroom. My wispy hair was tangled and all over my face. I could not even recognize myself anymore. My fingers traced the outlines of my frail jaw line and thoughts ran incoherently through my mind.

I wondered constantly why my room had nothing but white walls. They would not even give me scissors to trim my hair. I needed to go somewhere, anywhere. Wait a minute, where’s my baby girl? My face contorted in consternation at the very thought. They can’t take her away from me! No! I bolted and rummaged around frenetically.

“Mummy, here.” I heard a gurgle. I turned and saw my baby waving to me from her crib. I walked and an awkward smile formed on my face. Drawing her into my bosom, my gripped began to tighten against her small body. Tighter and tighter it grew and with a forceful wrench, I broke her. Fluff filled up the whole room and I danced around in glee. That devil spawn, a memorandum from the man.

Look what they've done now, bringing out the monster in me.

Labels: psychotic.

ok today was like busy busy fun fun! haha
cause of x-country. [update the pics some other time]
then went to play pool with leehui.jas.clarabel.mingxin
and i ended up as their mentor.lol
yeahyeah. i'm good enough to teach. hahas
surprisingly though

at the mrt :]

i was snapped-shot! grrr.hahas

nineball is totally kickass fun!

yes. then me and leehui went to catch a movie.
the title is just below :]

secret!KICK-ASS FANTABULOUS!!
some pics of it to make those who haven't watch [god forbid it]
please please. this is totally worth it
it kept my face in a a rigid shock expression through out :]
best movie i've watched this year
besides simpsons i guess.lo

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jay emo

this scene was hilarious :]

emoness..and totally cool. he was back facing the piano and playing a song with one hand
and he said something uber sweet to the girl :]

him emo and his dad cheering him up :] crieddd

nicenice

he finally opened up :]

really really. watch it. its got me squirming and twitching in my seat
and i've decided.
i'll only get a bf when i go to further my studies in jap after jc [i think]
and find my musically inclined-emo guy :]
after watching the movie
i now want someone who would play the piano till their fingers bleed for me :]
sadistic. i know
BUT. yeah.its just me:]
then went for neos.zzz. haven taken one in like a year? lol

lesbo!

i have no idea. what was with this pose :/

was rushing. cause of the timer. zzz

radon and fransium! we're elements! hahas

coolness pose :]lolx

wheee! hahas


tata. i'm going into mugging mode soon
i hope.
people.
stop
asking
me
to
go
out
with
you.
THANKS :]

Labels: secret.shhhh.